Have you ever felt like your life was on hold, or that there was a missing piece to the puzzle of who you are, that maybe God hit the pause button of your life when you felt he should have hit the play or fast forward.
I have! I am a visual person and I always have a scenario in my mind of what I am feeling like in the season of my life
The race horse on a brisk morning on the track ready to run the race of my life, but no one was opening the door so I could show the crowd or God that I could run a great hard race win or not.
Then there is the running but yet haven't moved, I visualized a hamster on the round running wheel going round and round feeling like a busy worker then it dawned on me I was in the same place that I started.
Now don't get me wrong, I am a positive person, I do what is necessary to stay in that happy zone but sometimes it seemed difficult.
My other is the muddy lake - OH you know the one...that your walking in the mud up to your waist, moving in slow motion, so so slow, and exhausted with the situation but you have to keep moving.
Not understanding and not liking that my pause button had been pushed, tired, cranky and ready to give up is always when the light bulb goes off - the "AH HA" moment when it all makes sense of why I had been in that "season" that I was not on pause I just needed time to learn the lesson.
Most recently I was in the muddy lake! I was moving forward but at such a slow pace that I would get frustrated. I like things in a "microwave moment" and not have to wait.
I know the lessons are always far greater and has allowed me to see things differently, instead of being sad and on the pity pot that I am in mud...Again! I now see the mud as a great beauty treatment. The muddy lake is my personal spa that it is the best beauty treatment I could receive from God.
This season in the muddy lake it showed me to enjoy the slow pace, to see the dragon flies, the turtles, the deer on the bank, the smell of the trees that the wind carried on a hot day. It allowed me to be quit and listen to myself, listen to other, watch the beauty of life in each day. Each time I come out of my muddy lake I see the change in my life, a new beauty in myself, personal growth of making me a better person.
My wish to you is, while your in your mud lake, hamster wheel, or horse stall that you allow yourself to be quit and hear the beauty in each moment and see the beauty treatment in the mud the strength from the hamster wheel or the perseverance in the wait to run the full race and win
Karol Lahrman
